WHAAATTTT ?! ( r u stupid or something?)

13 Mei 1994

Today is our 1st anniversary... horay!

13 Sept 2000

I want to break up with my hunny... I don't want to pretend my position as his girl-friend anymore...

For this 7 years, I really don't know him much, I though I know him better, but I was wrong! I never felt close to him. He never talk to me the truth and he did't trust me. I don't know what exactly he want! He lied to me when he want me to be happy with him and pretend to say he love me, bull shit!!! He've just manipulating himselfes by saying that words even his heart didn't feel that way too. I'm trying to understand him much, but he disappointed me back!

I think about where he might be, I've written him letter that I'd like to send if he would just send 1 to me, coz' I've waited so long for him to write me...

But I was blind to see, he didn't care at me anymore, I don't know it I'll be over him

He found somebody new, that's the first I realize I'm far from his mind, I can't believe he could want a body else, so no one could take my place, at lease that's what I've been telling myself...

I have left for him behind... why should I keep loving him when I know that he isn't true and why should I call his name when he is the blame of making me blue... he treat me cruel, hurt me and made me cry... But now I realize that his life isn't mine...

I woke up from my sleep that I was dream about him last night...

When I open my eyes, I feel my life is back and I'm ready to start my new life...

I want to be free...